JANUARY 26, 2026 - prompt 01: Speak about a time you were at your lowest.
Omg... when I was at my lowest... For me thats a sensitive topic, not because it's hard to share, but because others seem to be uncomfortable when I talk about it, hence why I try to talk about it less now. I struggled a lot throughout my life socially. From the time I could speak, I was always the weird one, the outcast, the kid that didn't belong. Looking back, I was just loenly and misunderstood. I screamed and cried up until I was 12 to convey my feelings because I was otherwise unheard by everyone from my perspective. My mom tried to understand, but I never really knew how to show what went on in my head. I think at the time, the part of myself that I merely saw as a curse, was the fact that I'm ALWAYS in my own head. I've always been in the clouds, in my imagination. So naturally I thought everyone else was too. I isolated myself from the beginning because I was only in my brain and never in reality, and that still applies now. I was seen as weird, and I still am. I used to think it was a bad thing, being left out, laughed at, constantly made fun of just for being different. But I only recently started to understand that I'm not different, everyone is. Some people just choose to hide parts of themselves that they know others will judge. During middle school I went through an even harder time. Everyone hated me, so I hated everyone else. I treated people poorly, and I thought I was a victim when called out. Nowadays, I'm doing better, and I truly believe that it happened because of the most horrible thing thats ever happened to me. I attempted suicide three years ago.Yes that was the worst decision i could have ever made, but I wouldn't be where I'm at in life if it weren't for that. I learned a lot about myself going forward, and I promised myself I'd heal and grow, and try to see the good in everything. I went from only seeing the bad in life, to now thriving in any good I can find. I refuse to judge another human being because I myself have only ever been judged and ridiculed. I love the weird and misunderstood because thats all I've ever been, and now I love it. I love who I am, but I also love that I'm weird, I love that I'm real. I love that I'm no longer afraid of what others think, because I only get one life, and I refuse to spend it in the hell I was in before. I will continue to find the good in everything because that's what life is about - joy.
Feeling:
Proud of my progress.
Song of the day:
Big Idea - AJR
